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Below are the 13 most recent journal entries recorded in Alan's LiveJournal:

Saturday, February 19th, 2005
11:35 am
Wow.. it freaken fits..
Take the quiz: "What does your birth month reveal about you?"

Has lots of extraordinary ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinkforward. Unique. brilliant. Sharp thinking. Fine, strong clairvoyance. make good doctors. Dynamic. Secretive. Inquisitive. Know how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative. amiable. Brave. generous. Patient. Stubborn. hardhearted. Determined. Never quit. Hardly become angry unless provoked. Love to be alone. Think differently. Sharp-minded. Motivate self. Dont appreciate praises. Highspirited. Well-built, tough. Deep love, emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest. Keepsecrets. Cant control emotions. Unpredictable.

By the way... I'm all about playing with a compressed air gun... it's like.. I'm a Gundam.. here's my beam rifle.. ignore the cord that it's attached to and that it only shoots compressed air... Fathom the thought of F33Ring being pwned

Current Mood: bored
11:29 am
Insert Random Subject in This Space
Well for starters..

Biiiigg freaken yawn...

Got off work yesterday afternoon... Slept.. woke up... slept.. woke up.. slept... probably did that until around 8ish or so... lounged around the house.. talked to Will for a minute decided to go over there... got there about.. midnight.. Learned about Bust a Move.. and learned to get owned by an inebriated Will playing Bust a Groove... Became Inebriated... Played some more... Balance of Power started to tip in my favor about midways through Will's 4th Screwdriver.. Left around.. 2ish? I dunno... Came home.. forced myself to stay awake...

...went to work at 7 this morning.. Hung over and tired...Rofl...

Four hour day though.. left at 11... and here I am...

- more later

Current Mood: bored
2:43 am
had too much to drink..

bust a groove is a really...wild.. game that Will is good at.

....had too much to drink..

have to work in like.. 4 hours..

This will be a fun saturday...

Current Mood: content
Monday, February 14th, 2005
10:18 pm
How would you sum up today..
A... lot of things... have happened today... Things regarding me... Things that have happened to other people... things that people have lost..

Rest in Peace, James Jackson.. We were never really close as friends as you were to the rest of the group, but it most certainly doesn't take away who you were as a person. Nobody ever had anything bad to say about you.. I'm sure if I would've had the ability to know you better.. I would've said the same. I tried getting together with Doug and everyone at the apartment.. they left for Wal-Mart when I got there.. I did stop by Anglers to talk to Will for a bit though..

I had something else happen to me today.. that was directly related to me... I.. really don't know how to take it though... I just.. I feel the pain the other perons involved feels though.. But.. what about me? I never made a decision on that matter... I didn't know what to do.. and.. before I knew.. it was gone before I had the chance to decide... I will definately be a lot more cautious though.. I don't want to take away how I do something, nor how another wants to do something as well.. I didn't consider it a mistake as I said I did..

I went to get my mind off things by heading over to the mall and breaking a promise I break everytime.. I played Dance Dance once again... I did something a bit different though.. I looked back.. on everybody's opinion of me. About how they said I was really good, awesome, ect.. I wanted to believe I really was.. I wanted to listen to something other than "I'm not good at this anymore.. I've lost my edge. I'll never get it back.. everyone's surpassed me." I listened.. and though I had a rough time starting back up.. I was surprised with my outcome.. I finished up the night with a hard set of songs.. all cleared with an A (for those who know a bit of the lingo -

Bag - 10 foot
Healing Vision (angelic mix) - 9 foot
Max300 - 10 foot

Passed all with an A.. It made me feel really good about myself.. That I saw the awesome that everyone else saw. I'm going to signup for that tournament.. heh.. Wish me luck? I dunno. :)

I guess I should get ready for bed.. Work tomorrow.. I would at least like to attend the service if and or when there will be one.. Hopefully I'll be able to. Good Luck on your Next Journey. Though you have left in form.. your spirit roams free to the wind.. and your memories will always be a part of those who remember you and cared for you.. Good Times.

- More Later

Current Mood: blank
Sunday, February 13th, 2005
1:28 pm
Last night was great.. Hanging out with the group has been much needed.. Got home about 2:30-3ish in the morning.. I called Crys mainly to find out about the wreck she was in earlier and make sure everything was cool with her and everyone else involved.. Then it went onto the topic of how if I still wanted her to replace my busted Japanese PS2 and I was like.. "Yea, if you did that I'd be much appreciative." And then.. she goes right back to the DVDs.. saying "I can just take them out of what would goto the PS2 and give you the difference." Which.. is pretty fucked.. I mean.. I don't understand why you would ask someone if you'd still want something just to tell them that well. If you want this.. then I want that.. and I'll take what I need out of the cash that's going towards what you want.. I told her to forget it.. I wouldn't see that PS2..

I'm not taking responsibility for those DVDs.. I don't know how they ruined, I can say there's nothing that I did that could've ruined them... Pfft.. Completely random laser fuckup? uhm.. it could've just as easily happened to her as it did me then. and if it was the laser, it would fuck itself up, not the DVD (something tells me the info she got was probably Oliver. ::shrug::) the little plastic crap on the disc.. I actually remember that.. because I noticed it when I First opened up the DVD set.. and I tried to -delicately- remove it with a fingernail.. and it wasn't happening.. not only that I didn't want to fuck it up. It's frustrating to me that she'll sit there and tell me what I've done when it cannot be proven.. she tried to tell me I had those DVD's long before she moved which was utter bullshit, because I didn't get my PS2 until after she moved. and it didn't bust until later on than that. Bunch of Shady ass bullshit.. Just another reason why I cannot trust her.

anywho, I suppose it'll be a slow as hell sunday..

more later.
Friday, February 11th, 2005
3:25 pm
Absolutely Nothing
Wow.. Kris is gonna go to FL.. I wanna goto FL.. Lucky Douchebag..

Work was... boring... Hanging out with Doug last night was cool.

I should refrain from eating spicy food when I'm gonna have a drink or two though..... mm.. .nah.

uhm.. that's all..

- more later.
5:54 am
Soo not feelin going to work today.. grawh.. ah well.. time to strip and reclothe...

Current Mood: tired
Wednesday, February 9th, 2005
11:53 pm
That blows.. I couldn't even work up a nerve to ask her out on Valentines.. or any day for that matter.

Ah well.. had a killer time with Kristina, Joe, and Michelle tonight shooting pool. I felt like such a dork though... I dunno.. It was still cool though.

Current Mood: tired
4:21 pm
Welp.. I'm off work.. and squeaky clean.. My mood has become so much better than before.. I think for sake of whining purposes I'll leave those types of entries private. Wow.. Kris really was gone when I got back.. amazing? Nah.. anywho.. I need to put on shoes and head out..

- more later.

Current Mood: Aqua - Cartoon Heroes.. (omfg)
4:57 am
Well at any rate.. I feel a lot better.. I got a few things off my chest.. I still have a drive of where I need to be.. whether I get there or not.. I'm looking into enlisting.. There's no life for me in Charleston that I know of.. So I'll sign my soul away for 4 years.. and when and or if I make it back.. everything will be different.. It will be like a total reset.. I'll hate it.. but at the same time.. things are just so screwed here... Well.. they're not as bad as I guess I make them out to be to myself. I'm just.. ready to move on.. I'm ready to pursue my future.. I'm ready to become successful, start a home, have a family.. I've wanted that all my life.. I've heard a couple of the greatest feelings in the world are to be a father.. and a loving husband.. I'd be smart about it, regardless.. I Wouldn't rush into marriage.. I'm not even successful yet.. provide for a family before you have the family.. There's so much I want to do.. so many things I want to do.. Maybe I'll have the chance.. maybe not. If anyone has any input.. feel free.

Current Mood: blank
3:15 am
This is too much to deal with... I don't know how much longer I can stay here.. At least I know if I went away that I wouldn't have any control over any of the issues down here.

I need to start talking to recruiters.. I think it's the only way I'll be able to move forward with my life
Tuesday, February 8th, 2005
5:46 pm
well lost that entry anyways..

Work was great.. Alan's bored.. wants to hang out with people..

Guh where does this feeling of being a bother even come from? Feh.. Screw it..

Still got minor issues.. no more drama though.. will post more later.
Monday, February 7th, 2005
7:10 pm
So this really fricken blows.. I finally figure out where I'd be going with a new LJ and everytime I go to add friends.. the damn Server Database is down.. Guh!.. Oh well.

My new journal.. Glee. :) m'suppose anyways.

Feeling rather clingy today.. which bothers me.. Only because I don't deem it fair to subject people to my clinginess.. unless they sign a waiver. Even then I'm sketchy.

I like the fact that I still try to have a sense of humor when I feel a bit down.

I have some things going through my head also...Not necessarily about the immediate past.. Actually.. not at all about my immediate past.. I made my mistakes.. I didn't learn from them at first.. I did eventually.. Cut and dry as that. There were just so many different things that I could've done different in highschool.. and granted I'm happy I didn't do a lot of them different.. there were a couple.. I wish I did.. I'll probably post about it in a private entry that I may let people read in a C&P sometime later. I need to get it out.. because it was something.. i gave some thought to.. but.. not a lot to. I should get out and do something. I'm not good with solo events.. I lose interest very quickly when I try to go out on an endeavor alone..

Microwaved Pizza hits the spot.

I really like my new job. :) it's nothing I want to do forever though.. I still want to travel abroad. There's a lot more than South Carolina out there.. But after talking about some things.. I didn't realize how afraid I was of doing so myself.. I've gotten better at opening up to people.. maybe if someone is curious to know now.. I'll tell them..

I guess I'll stare at the compy screen for a little bit longer.. well.. between that and the tele at least.. Bye people who don't much exist on my friend's list yet :)

Current Mood: depressed
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